I'm on two anti-depressants and I still feel like committing suicide - I've been looking up methods on the internet. I cannot seem to stop thinking about it. My psychiatrist doesn't believe that I'm still depressed on the meds (I hide my emotions, like men are supposed to). I worked in the electrical trade so I know a sure fire method that is quick (not painless, but the pain only lasts a few minutes). I'm just so tired of fighting to get ahead and not making any progress - it seems like I'm stuck in this state. I already talked to my psych people about my suicidal feelings - they make me promise I won't do anything for the week until I see them again but that won't stop me.