There are reasons, but maybe I'm not aware of them... I just don't know why I feel like this. Everything about me is changing. It's like I'm going down hill, I can't type that well anymore (no =t that I was good in the first place) But in speach too, I am loosing vocabulary, and usage. I can't think straight... But thats no reason to feel this way. I almost just walked away the other day. I was mowing that lawn, and I just wanted to run, anywhere. and never come back.