Why oh god why do I go on? I mean I already know I suck at life so why do I keep living? Fuck why do I do it? I know I will never make any friends in the real world I will never meet a significant other nor will I ever mate. Not that my net friends are not great and all. But the 1s and 0s can only go so far. But knowing me I would not appreciate those real life friends and so on. I mean I suck I cannot appreciate anything. I do not appreciate how I have a job that pays well. I do not appreciate that I have people who care for me online. I do not appreciate the great place I live in. And all because of what? Because I have never fucking kissed a female? Or is it because I see my "unit" and realize that it is obviously below average. What the fuck? Why the fuck am I so fixated on something so lame? Why god why? Is this a testament to how much I fucking suck? What is this some kind of joke? Am I really just lying to myself? I do not know, I fucking hate it all. Why the fuck do I have to be cursed to be fucking depressed about something so trivial. Why the fuck can I not appreciate anything I have WHY THE FUCK WHY WHY WHY? God I hate me, I just want the power to end it all. Fuck... I could even have the rope to end it all right here....But I left it in my one friends car. God damn it... oh well time to go to sleep and sleep this off. I have a long day at work. I will answer advice and comments tomorrow. I would like some feedback or insights if you guys do not mind.