Why Do I Have to Stay?

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by RCC, Sep 7, 2007.

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  1. RCC

    RCC Well-Known Member

    I'm a Christian, I love Christ with all I got. Everyday I read about Christian stuff or listen to Christian stuff, my relationship with Christ is very strong.

    However, my "earth" life, is hard to bare.
    I realise that I'm more blessed then others, I live in middle class Canada, my parents are together and I have a dog who can put a rare smile on my face. But mentally, I struggle. I was abused when I was a eight-years-old, and suffered slight brain damage, so I'm already at a disadvantage. Nowadays, I'm extremely lonley, my sister - whom I loathe - is always out with friends, my mother is rarely around and my father works from 5 AM to 7 PM and usually falls asleep around 9 PM. I have no friends, and I mean zero friends; I'm not some whiny kid who has just a few friends, some fastidious kid who doesn't have the friends he/she wants or some spoiled brat who is in a fight with the majority of his/her friends, I mean I have zero friends. I don't go to school, I don't have a job (I'm 17 by the way) I don't socialize at all - due to my aneixty disorder in an obviouly large way - infact this forum is my only community. Every night I go to bed upset and every morning I wake up distraught. Horrible thoughts go through my head daily - urges some of the time - of sex, violence, ect.
    The only think I look forward to is death.

    So that brings me to my main point, a question:
    Why do I have to stay? I've accepted Christ as my savior, so why can't I kill myself tonight and join him in Heaven?
     
  2. Even Christ on the cross asked forlornly "WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?!"

    People never seem to remember that part. I think he'd understand...


    FAL1
     
  3. Darken

    Darken Well-Known Member

    maybe you can fix your mental illnesses with meds. should at least try. i know how it feels to be neglected by every one. where no one ever wants to spend more than five minutes of time with you every day. you need your parents support but they arent helping :( :hug:
     
  4. pisces-music-girl

    pisces-music-girl Well-Known Member

    I agree with both posts. I am Christian too, but my faith has been known to waver.

    You should get help soon. In the meantime, take care. :hug:
     
  5. Esmeralda

    Esmeralda Well-Known Member

    Actually, Jesus was quoting the 22nd Psalm when he said "Why have you forsaken me?" The Psalm actually very accurately predicts the death of Jesus.

    1 My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
    Why are you so far from saving me,
    so far from the words of my groaning?
    2 O my God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer,
    by night, and am not silent.

    3 Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One;
    you are the praise of Israel. [a]

    4 In you our fathers put their trust;
    they trusted and you delivered them.

    5 They cried to you and were saved;
    in you they trusted and were not disappointed.

    6 But I am a worm and not a man,
    scorned by men and despised by the people.

    7 All who see me mock me;
    they hurl insults, shaking their heads:

    8 "He trusts in the LORD;
    let the LORD rescue him.
    Let him deliver him,
    since he delights in him."

    9 Yet you brought me out of the womb;
    you made me trust in you
    even at my mother's breast.

    10 From birth I was cast upon you;
    from my mother's womb you have been my God.

    11 Do not be far from me,
    for trouble is near
    and there is no one to help.

    12 Many bulls surround me;
    strong bulls of Bashan encircle me.

    13 Roaring lions tearing their prey
    open their mouths wide against me.

    14 I am poured out like water,
    and all my bones are out of joint.
    My heart has turned to wax;
    it has melted away within me.

    15 My strength is dried up like a potsherd,
    and my tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth;
    you lay me in the dust of death.

    16 Dogs have surrounded me;
    a band of evil men has encircled me,
    they have pierced [c] my hands and my feet.

    17 I can count all my bones;
    people stare and gloat over me.

    18 They divide my garments among them
    and cast lots for my clothing.

    19 But you, O LORD, be not far off;
    O my Strength, come quickly to help me.

    20 Deliver my life from the sword,
    my precious life from the power of the dogs.

    21 Rescue me from the mouth of the lions;
    save [d] me from the horns of the wild oxen.

    22 I will declare your name to my brothers;
    in the congregation I will praise you.

    23 You who fear the LORD, praise him!
    All you descendants of Jacob, honor him!
    Revere him, all you descendants of Israel!

    24 For he has not despised or disdained
    the suffering of the afflicted one;
    he has not hidden his face from him
    but has listened to his cry for help.

    25 From you comes the theme of my praise in the great assembly;
    before those who fear you [e] will I fulfill my vows.

    26 The poor will eat and be satisfied;
    they who seek the LORD will praise him—
    may your hearts live forever!

    27 All the ends of the earth
    will remember and turn to the LORD,
    and all the families of the nations
    will bow down before him,

    28 for dominion belongs to the LORD
    and he rules over the nations.

    29 All the rich of the earth will feast and worship;
    all who go down to the dust will kneel before him—
    those who cannot keep themselves alive.

    30 Posterity will serve him;
    future generations will be told about the Lord.

    31 They will proclaim his righteousness
    to a people yet unborn—
    for he has done it.


    The Psalm is intended to be a Psalm of hope (note the ending).

    Jesus said this, knowing that the Hebrews would recognize the ancient scripture and that they would realize He had fulfilled the prophecy.
     
  6. meh__

    meh__ Well-Known Member

    this is why i stopped believing in god altogether
     
  7. MrBill

    MrBill Active Member

    I used to call myself a christian, was quite into it once. But as I've grown older and watched all the crap that is happening in the world, I now call myself agnostic. I just don't know any more. The world would be a much better place without religion. Without religon we wouldn't have had 9/11 and so much hate and intolerance toward each other. I find it's hard to be a Christian or a part of any religion with all of that.

    :mellow:
     
  8. ftheunion

    ftheunion Member

    I ain't a religious freak or anything, but I heard if you commit suicide, you go to hell because you destroyed your body that was given to you or something.
     
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