Does anyone else set deadlines to kill themselves at a certain date all the time... like in a day, few days/months/year? I do this and except for one failed drowning attempt I always talk myself out of it. This is extremely frustrating as I will never have any friends. My life isn't worth living/fighting for. I can't even find friends online or someone to talk to. I'm 19 and it's obvious I'll never find any friends or a girlfriend in my life. I know no one gives a crap but what should someone with mild autism, tons of disorders and no friends do in this situation? Please I need some help. Best solution I could come up for my situation is suicide, but I'm very bad at this as I keep delaying it indefinitely I think someone severely disabled and in wheelchairs or with no arms or legs is more fortunate than me because they probably have some friends and world doesn't act like they are INVISIBLE.