Sorry my insecurity gets the best of me when it come to females I have a strong attraction to. So yesterday, May 23rd, I went on another date/hangout with my friend Y. This time I made sure to engage in an activity that would allow us to talk some more, yay for mini-golf. Problem is that the talking was sparse again. We did our usual routine of occasionally smiling at each other in silence. We did have conversation in small bursts. Mostly when I was driving us around. So I had to focus on the road, and could not look at her. According to what she told me at the end of the date/hangout she had fun. So I wonder what the fuck is wrong with me? I cannot even carry on a decent conversation? I do not get it, I am just fine when I chat with her via text or IM. Yet when we actually spend time together, it is like I forget how to talk. God I feel like I am not getting anywhere. I want her to be comfortable around me. Yet, it always seems like 2 steps back whenever I am actually around her. I know that it would be the dame with any other new person in my life. I should just go hide in a cave for the rest of my life and whine about how socially retarded I am.