It's, like, everything I do always goes wrong regardless of how much thought and effort I put into it. I'm clearly and madly in love with her, and according to her she feels the exact same way back, but it just keeps going wrong. We have fights over the most stupid things, and last night it practically ended. I woke up this morning and the first thing I wanted to do was rip my heart out and tear it in two. I wanted to gauge my eyes and ears out, and just curl up and die. No matter what I try, nothing goes how I want. Why do I have to be such a pathetic hopeless twat?