Going back to college this year. My job prospects are looking up. I've had a lot of sex and can get it whenever I want. But I can't help walking down the street with my headphones in listening to this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dX3k_QDnzHE and feeling the urge to cry and jump in front of an oncoming vehicle. My life has got so much better. But the need to end it is still there. I'm on anti-depressants. Sometimes I just feel hollow. I walk through life with my headphones in listening to dramatic and powerful often sad songs on repeat like I'm in some dramatic music video.