I'm always researching about suicide and people always say that it'll get better and that these feelings won't last forever. It's been almost 3 years since I've been ill and it never gets any better for me. I get that most people giving advice have never felt the way that I do, but it's frustrating for me when I'm feeling so badly and they're giving advice about what to do when you feel suicidal when they have never been suicidal or understand what it feels like to be in my shoes. People are always saying that you should call 911, a crisis line, or go to the hospital. I've been to the hospital and seen psychiatrists. I've done everything that I possible could to try and get better, but nothing works for me. I need help badly, but why would I continue to go to the hospital, call 911 or a crisis line when I know that it won't help me. Am I the only person in this world that isn't treatable? It doesn't matter how educated that someone is on mental health. Unless they've felt what it's like, they will never understand what it feels like to want to die all of the time or to have tried getting help when nothing helps.