Most people can say "Maybe I didn't have everything as a child but I was loved." Why can't I even say that? It's so goddamn unfair, I've never had love and never will. This is all I'll ever have, memories of a horrible, neglectful, abuseful childhood and fear of everything and everyone in the world. I just want to die so I can forget how painful it is to be totally worthless and unloved. Why is it so fucking unfair?