Soooo I have been threw the whole suicide thing when I was a teen ager. I did it for attention & then got addicted to cutting. I've gotton threw all that but recently HARD feelings gave come back into my life I never talk about anything & when things bad happeni pretend nothing happened I've been to the psych ward at least 5 times I'm 22 & have suffered from panic attacks when I was 16. I recently been having alot of stomach problems and I have to take maalox evry 4 hours I take a high dose of klonipin a day plus xanax and ativan just to keep my panic down I'm sick of living like this taking a shit load of pills just to get by everyday I recentlywent to the er for server stomach pain I honestly never wanted to kill myself so bad in my life I was actually looking for things to do it with . There's more to my story but I just want advise and other ppls story about how they overcame this anything to help I'm on edge and crawling out of my skin.