There are lots of things in my life which cause me depression and grief, but none so much as the fact that I am not having sex. I mean I understand why I am not having sex, females are not attracted to a boring, ugly, loser with no social skills, I get that much. I have also pretty much given up on ever being fixed. I am just limping along until my cat dies so I can kill myself. However, I would like that time to pass a little faster. When I am constantly depressed about my lack of sexual activity, it makes time crawl. I just want these last few years of suffering with my cat to go by quickly so I can get it over with.