I have been depressed now for 18 months, I lost my mum (we were very close!), my wife decided she didn't want to be married to me anymore and threw me out (I have been a model husband!) as a result of this I have lost my lovely home which has taken me so many years to afford, I now have to live apart from my children who are 4 and 7, and can only see them every other weekend for two nights. I lived for my family and this is killing me! I am now in serious financial trouble because I cannot afford my mortgage and the rent on a flat and all the bills that come with it, child maintenance, my car and fuel etc, clothes for my children as my ex makes me buy all my own clothes for them. The court and the CSA have made the decision that I should pay this, but I simply can't afford it and afford to actually live myself! I have always felt like I want to die but I have never felt suicidal until now! I am seriously considering it because I am absolutley at the end of my tether. I cannot see a way out of my problem, I am screaming for help!