I havnt been to work for over 2 weeks, I havnt seen my kids for almost the same length of time, Why does none of that bother me ?? I've missed some counselling sessions & been away as I couldn't face being in familiar territory any longer & not caring if friends or family missed me. Everywhere I go at my home area just reminds me of my wife & it's so hard to be positive. I just want to move away for good as I find it all too painful being around people & places I know. I know my kids & family would be upset but it really doesn't bother me though I know it should. Im currently 500 miles from home & I really don't want to go back. Everything there just makes me think of her & I just can't seem to cope & it's been nearly 3 months since I last spoke to her but the pain isn't getting any better. I seem to have lost all empathy with everyone including my kids, it doesn't bother me how it will affect them if I move away. Why she has affected me so bad I just don't know but I've lost all positive thinking since being away from her. I really don't know if I'm ill or just really sad. Meds not working at the moment. I've lost enjoyment in everything in my life.