I can't do this anymore. Just when i thought I was picking myself up something comes along to push me over the edge, and I really don't see any point living or trying anymore. My old employers continue to shaft me.. received what they think is an acceptable draft reference for me to give to prospective new employers, yet nothing good written in it...did the three years I gave to the organisation mean nothing... I worked my arse off, gave people their lives back and now what life have I got....I have nothing to live for anymore...nothing, nothing, nothing. Can't deal with the pain anymore....why does it have to be christmas in a couple of weeks...i'd end it now but what hurt will that cause my family...I can't do it yet, but how do i get through christmas and new year when I don't want to live. My doctor isn't even at work till next tuesday so what do I do. Just want to drink myself into oblivion and throw myself off a tall building or drive my car into a river Plesae someone help me.