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Why would I fall in love with a woman who apparently wont ever feel it back? What am I supposed to learn from that? I have never felt this way, not once in 30 years of dating. I have went thru my fair share of heartache, but I really thought it was real this time. I have also made my mind up to stop looking for the real thing. If this woman isn't the one I've been searching for - I won't be able to handle the real thing. I simply can't go on like this. I don't want anyone else, she doesn't want me and I can't live without love but I have failed. I truly wish I was capable of suicide, I just don't want to exist anymore - but I digress. The real question here is why would we feel so strongly over someone, have such a connection - for no real reason? What is unrequitted love and life shattering heartache supposed to teach us? All it has taught me is to never allow for a chance of it happening again........