Why her..

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by LoD, Dec 1, 2008.

  1. LoD

    LoD Well-Known Member

    Why does this happen? Is this the right question to ask? Is blame to be cast upon something as trivial as luck? =/

    I thought she wouldn't do this, I trusted her... She knows I can't handle this shit...

    Yesterday was my birthday party, everything was fun, I brought this girl along which I've known for about 6 years now, to meet with all my friends. I love her.

    At this party, I believe she and one of my 3 best mates made out, probably while I was cooking some food for the party... I really wish this crap wouldn't have happened... I want to turn it back. I want to twist time's neck and bend it back, to where nothing ever happened.

    WHO AM I SUPPOSED TO BE ANGRY AT?! My best mate deserves all he can get, as does she. I'm trying to be happy for them but it hurts like shit. :(

    Why does every girl I like end up in the arms of one of my best mates? Why am I asking stupid questions like this while I know my depressed state will only find the wrong answers? Why do I even believe there is an answer?

    'You'll find someone someday', yes, sure, people love it when you're all emotionally distant for miles away. I'm sure they'll find me.

    There is no victim, there is no suspect, just a bit of frivolous hurt, a fleeting feeling, nothing more. Close your eyes, everything´s all right. Don´t worry, don´t think about it.

    You knew this was coming. Just because she said ´Don´t worry about stuff like that´, you shouldn´t have let your guard down, not again.

    Just because you´re opening up, doesn´t mean you should drop the weapons. This is a fight to the death, be armed to the teeth, shielded to the bone.

    I hate myself, the useless thinking, the useless passing of thoughts in a train of thought no one catched.

    Ctrl. A. Delete.

    Stop deluding yourself.
  2. Vitreledonellidae

    Vitreledonellidae Well-Known Member

    Aww sven :hug:
    Ik neem aan dat die ene wist dat je haar leuk vind.
    Zal ik hem voor jou in elkaar rammen :mad:
    Sorry ben in agressie mood en weet verder niks te zeggen
  3. dongargon

    dongargon Member


    I feel your pain.

    "it takes 2 to tango", if they were real mates then they wouldnt have got it on assuming they knew how you felt. Sometimes it takes things like this for you to understand where you really stand with those people that you call 'friends'.

    With love and emotional feelings towards a girl Ive found that it doesnt pay to hide it & keep it in. If youre not happy for them then dont pretend to be. I'd let stay clear of them if I was you.

    At least you found out now rather than later on down the line where you could have been in a serious relationship with her.
  4. sudut

    sudut Well-Known Member

    I know, this has happened to me in the past and the feeling really sux.

    After all is said and done, I have decided to let what is be. Things happen for a reason.
  5. Sa Palomera

    Sa Palomera Well-Known Member

    Sven :sad: :arms:

    Aan woorden heb je nu waarschijnlijk niets, maar ik wil je toch even laten weten dat ik om je geef. De laatste tijd ben ik weinig online enzo, en veel weg gedurende weekenden, maar na kerst enzo zou dat weer rustiger moeten worden. Ik mis je :sad:

    Ik weet dat ik waarschijnlijk niets voor je kan betekenen wat betreft advies enzo, maar misschien kunnen we wel wat gaan doen met zijn tweeen? Wat afleiding doet je misschien enigszins goed?