I feel bad for being here.
I have read through various messages and topics and you could say that my issues are nowhere near what most people have been through so I am really sorry for bothering you but I wanted to let it out.
I have family that cares for me. I have a loving wife (we have been together for 12 years). I have managed to do relatively well in school and in university with people supporting me.
I suffer from some strange anxiety disorder. Been on ladose on and off and on seroquel. A big opportunity came up and I hadn't prepared myself adequately so ended up screwing it. I started being depressed again and thinking that if I was a true winner I would have taken the opportunity and move on and succeed. Instead I remained in this job that I don't necessarily like and I feel like I fucked up again. I don't know for how long I can continue doing this. I owe it to my wife to support her and try be happy for her. I really want to do it because I truly love her but I don't know how long I can continue trying.
I have read through various messages and topics and you could say that my issues are nowhere near what most people have been through so I am really sorry for bothering you but I wanted to let it out.
I have family that cares for me. I have a loving wife (we have been together for 12 years). I have managed to do relatively well in school and in university with people supporting me.
I suffer from some strange anxiety disorder. Been on ladose on and off and on seroquel. A big opportunity came up and I hadn't prepared myself adequately so ended up screwing it. I started being depressed again and thinking that if I was a true winner I would have taken the opportunity and move on and succeed. Instead I remained in this job that I don't necessarily like and I feel like I fucked up again. I don't know for how long I can continue doing this. I owe it to my wife to support her and try be happy for her. I really want to do it because I truly love her but I don't know how long I can continue trying.