Why I Am No Longer Suicidal

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Righteous, Jan 6, 2009.

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  1. Righteous

    Righteous Well-Known Member

    I thought I should post this here as well seeing how the most suicidal people are probably here and hopefully this will help.

    Whats up people? I thought I would share with u why I am no longer suicidal. I'm gonna try not 2 make this 2 long so I will divide this topic into sections in case u wanna read some now and come back and read later. My different sections will show u the main reasons why we want 2 kill ourselves and how I overcame them.

    I) I Don't Really Dwell Among Human Society

    U see, the problem with most people is that they seek acceptance from others. People won't someone to impress, love, or basically 2 make them happy. There's the problem. U can not seek humans 4 your happiness. Happiness comes from within your soul. How is this? u may ask, well spiritual meditation can lead 2 inner peace. When Buddha said that we should not heavily attach ourselves 2 the things of this world he wasn't just talking about money, diamonds, and other luxury items, he was also talking about separating yourself from certain people as well.

    Even when some people can't find good friends, they will settle 4 evil friends just so they can feel accepted and not be lonely. Same is true 4 relationships. If some men or women can't find a good partner, they will settle 4 an evil partner just so they won't feel lonely.

    So I got 2 the moment in my life where I said "this madness has 2 stop". Just like the Morgan Freeman character said in the movie "Wanted", "Waking up everyday expecting human civilization 2 get right and peaceful is insanity"(Those weren't the exact words but thats the message he was giving) We just have 2 face reality, 90% of humans are evil. The odds of finding good people are extremely low.

    So now I live a life of solitude. Well kind of anyway. It wouldn't be fair 2 all my friends if I just completely stay away from them. However, I only deal with friends probably 4 or 5 days out of a month. No more of that being people all the time crap. Also no more of a lot of phone gossiping crap.

    Being around your friends a lot can increase the chance of chaos breaking out. So, 2 maintain my friendship with people, I only hang out with them every once in a while. Also, u know u can't put full trust in all your friends. There will be some friends who will observe your every move and your life pattern just 2 see when he or she can steal from u. And that's why I'm not so crazy about having friends, because some friends value paper and coins over their fellow man or woman.

    I'm not encouraging all of u 2 live like this because some of u may truly have good friends. Like I said not all humans are evil just 90% of them. U may have been fortunate enough 2 find people in that 10% group. I'm just saying if u can't find good friends or u have doubts about your friends u may wanna consider this lifestyle I live.

    I don't feel lonely at all. I get extreme pleasure from video games, movies, alcohol, and the internet. Sad as that may sound 2 some of u, but its true. I would rather indulge in alcohol, video games, movies and the internet rather than 2 be around people a lot.

    I'll bring up the other reasons later, seeing as how long this post is.
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  2. Summer.Rain

    Summer.Rain Well-Known Member

    Dude im sorry to say but you are so wrong...
    Some of us here dont have anyone in thair lifes!
    We completly alone and lonley and that is one of the major problems.
    Others in here sufferd from abuse. physical or mental.
    For others, thay had bad childhood

    I do agree that meditation is a great way to comm and setle our minds
    but meds are great too even though many evoiding it.

    check out this site:
  3. Barwell

    Barwell Active Member


    Good to see you are happy, I'm not saying it's the best way to keep yourself going. I've never personally tried Meditation. I am not that good at staying still. I'm more of an active person.

    But well done on this acomplishment. Now focus your mind of finding some buddies. and friends.

  4. jam1e

    jam1e Guest

    If that works for you then great, i am really happy for you!:smile:

    But you're wrong. In as much as, 90% of the population are "OK", it's only 10% who are truly evil!:smile:

    As has been said, different situations or lifestyles suit different people, we are all different, and have suffered in different ways, which affects our outlook on life.

    I personally think religion is the biggest load of bollucks ever believed in by so many people! I think religion is the only thing some people have to hold onto, as they have nothing else!

    Every Country i can think of that is infected by religion is plagued by war!:mad:
  5. Summer.Rain

    Summer.Rain Well-Known Member

    you are right but i love and support wars :X
  6. LightInTheDarkestNight

    LightInTheDarkestNight Well-Known Member

    Your right about not seeking happiness from others.

    And yes there are quite a few fake people in this world who only have you around most of the time for their benefit...

    I was living somewhat like you were and I was realtivly happy in my working out lifestyle..

    Until I got all these health prolems now it's a huge struggle everyday just to survive..
  7. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    I live a similar lifestlye as the opening poster too. I don't have many friends and honestly, I really don't want or need anymore. All I have is my family mostly and I hardly ever go out with my friends. I'm also into meditation and I have been practicing it for about 8 years now. A spiritual path can really be beneficial in one's life.
  8. Righteous

    Righteous Well-Known Member

    I see what u saying, but I believe that highly interactive video games can help with loneliness. Try playing Fallout 3 or Elders Scroll IV: Oblivion on Xbox 360. There's a lot of realistic human interaction in those games.

    I know I'm not completely alone, but hey, I don't have a whole click of friends 2 choose from either. My childhood was also bad, and I don't have a good family, but videogames and movies make me fell a lot better. Try playing those games and see how u will feel.
  9. theresaway

    theresaway Member

    Or try the Metal Gear Solid series theres so much emotions in it.when i play them im not even in this world, the problems just fades away. i love those games.
  10. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    I am glad that games and videos help keep you happy!! Just be forwarned that they only last for so long. I have isolated myself for fifteen years and use to play video games everyday and watch TV. Now I haven't touched the video games in over a year, they are just something else to collect dust on. I watch very little TV and belong to blockbuster thru the mail. Half the time I get the videos and never watch them. My point being you can only do those things for so long before you become bored with them. My self I love to read, but have become bored with that also. I have twenty five books backed up that I haven't read yet. I just can't bring myself to pick one up. So my only enjoyment in life is the computer. Take care!~Joseph~
  11. Mayal

    Mayal Well-Known Member

    I think it is a very basic human need to seek out and give affection and care, and to try and dismiss it normally leads at some point to a very big slide. I understand the need to be able to be at peace with yourself, and i also agree that many people invest too much time and emotion in unhealthy friendships and relationships, but in the end, twee or not, we need human contact to be able to get some of the things that you see as a negative righteous, validation, support, acceptance, love and to impress.

    Yes, it may hurt, but then surely pain is also an emotion that human need to experience and express?

    I disagree about 90% of the world being evil, i think 100% of the world have the capacity for evil, but only a small percent choose to use it, the problem is, that when you have experienced emotional, sexual or physical abuse, it is left as an open wound on you, and makes it easier for people to re-open it.

  12. Righteous

    Righteous Well-Known Member

    Well u see, thats the thing, through deep and powerful meditation I no longer care for human love and affection. I've come to the conclusion that a lot of the people that I have known for years will continue to be crazy and evil, so I really don't care if I'm accepted by them. I have spiritual peace because I have separated myself from them.
  13. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    I am also a deeply spiritual person and have spent many years practicing meditation. It's weird how meditation affects you. I care for people, but I don't crave love or affection. It causes you to become detached from your feelings in a way.
  14. Mayal

    Mayal Well-Known Member

    I would be interested to know if you both feel this is something that you want rather than perhaps need, whether you would like to continue on this path, or whether you would like to reach a place where you wanted love or affection but didn't feel you depended on it

    I hope you don't mind me asking, i am curious.

  15. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    I actually do plan on getting married one day in the future, but until then, I'm quite comfortable being by myself. Love and affection would be great but it's something I can live without quite comfortably.
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