I've really been working on not injurying myself for the past year, but do slip now and then. I slipped this weekend after my ex told me that he had all these problems and they were my fault for divorcing him and was I happy. It feeds right into my feeling guilty about not being able to handle to stay in the marriage or make things right. So I did a hack job. The next day he added a few more things, so I add a few burns. It was a hard weekend. My son and girlfriend broke up. An altercation between my ex and her friends & family took place so the police were called. My son called for me to pick him up. As I was doing that he got a call that his best friends mom and little brother had gotten hit by a car. We rushed to the hospital. She did not make it. She was a single parent. So today, I'm feeling low. Wish I didn't cut or burn. Wish there was something I could do to take the pain away from the family who is hurting. Feeling like I'm doing a terrible job at work. And realized, I really just need to find a way to like myself. Not punish myself.