I don't like people around me, everyone seems so much nicer when I'm drunk. I'm not an alcoholic, I have abused drugs in the past but I'm OK now, but does anyone just think "fuck it, I'll drink up so I can bring myself to be around these bastards" it's not my friends, it's life in general that is making me drink like this. I abuse solvents and my medication just to dabble with my mind and see if I can come up with the answers. I talk easier when drinking as well, less shy, more relaxed. My parents keep having a go at me for falling over wasted when I get home but they drink all the fucking time. What business is it of theirs if they drink every fucking night??? If things were a little better maybe I wouldn't do this to such excess. My Mum hungover gets bad depression and can't help me when I'm feeling suicidal she just doesn't understand. I just want to kill myself. It annoys me because I don't drink every day or anything, but when I hit the bar I just don't know my limit. Like I said, life doesn't seem so bad when I'm drunk... Am I alone?