Im sick of having to always find that positive note, and im just gonna admit to myself Im the worst human in the world. I dont find anything good within me. It just seems like god made me to fail. here's some reasons why Im sick of everything. Im too depressed to put out good grammar or nethin Im going crazy so dont think im stupid... well do if you want. 1. Looks wise im spotty, ( thanks to me) Ugly fat, and my brother would back me up on that ****, wear huge glasses because without them i get headaches, cant see anything, cause of I dunno depression I guess. 2. I couldnt get a girlfriend, I'm too nervous around girls, I dont know why, I just cant be myself around them, but heck even if i could, I cant have sex cause i have some problem with my dick. Hooray. Another problem on the list. 3. I hate my parents, I hate my family, and I get jealous of everyone who enjoys their families company. I hate myself around them I've never bought my mum a present and enjoyed it only wanted them cause im a selfish ****. My dad hasnt spoken a word directly to me, he takes the piss out of me, he went to jail, and my mums huge and i insult her behind her back, and I dont know why. Why Am I like this?! 4. I had friends, but they all hate me, whenever they get the chance they fucking take the piss, and now since im depressed Im just quiet, not because im nervous, but because I really cant think of anything to say My minds fucking shot to fuck. Seriously, the guy everyone says " god that guys a looser" Is me. its sad, but Heck a friend told me thats what everyone says about me on msn. I deserve it, truthfully I'm a bad person. I havent done anything for anyone else, ever. 5. I only play games. I ignored everyone else when i was happy, and just played games, when i was told my grandma died, I just carried on playing the game, because I couldnt understand why anyone could grieve over someone dieing. 6. Job-wise Im never gonna become anyone. It's scary. It fucking terrifies me. Im gonna be trying to live with my parents for the rest of my life, and their not gonna want me cause they hate me. Im about to come and tell my mum i want to drop out of college, because I cant do the coursework. I want to god help me I do. I cant, because im too depressed at the moment. WHAT do I do I mean seriously, I know Im a bad person. i Know everyone thinks im a bad person. Im the bottom of every class, literally bottom. Not close, always bottom. I've gotta go to school tommorow and fake im happy to new friends even though I'm gonna lose them. Its not like Im at the bottom of the pile and im secretly a nice guy, Im at the bottom of the social scale, And im the worst guy In the world. THE WORST . Like I'd like someone to compare how horrible they are with me, but I know they will never come close. I want someone to talk to, but im selfish you know? I'll think about my problems then leave you out. I hate me, the world hates me, god hates me, everything is against me. and I deserve more hate then that.