I come from a dysfunctional family that's fueled by hatred for each other. my father sleeps all day and works at night. I don't know if that's why he is so angry all the time or what, but damn is he angry, and he takes it out on me. he screams at me, he calls me a fuck up, and tells me i'm pathetic, he blames me for anything and everything that goes wrong in his life. He and my mother fight.. constantly they fight about everything from bills to the tv they throw around the word divorce so much that neither of them are frightened by it.. my mother refuses to see a problem with anything. when ever i try to talk to her about it she tells me that i'm blowing things out of proportion, and i'm the one making my self depressed, and if i act like i'm happy i will be.. blah blah blah, in other words "i don't give two f***s about how you feel deal with it yourself." one time i told my mom that i was suicidal she slapped me and said if i said anything like that again she'd kill me herself, and as for my friends.. oh yeah. i don't have any. i used to have a lot of friends but as my home life progressively got worse my social life progressively diminished "i'm just a depressing burden on there otherwise happy lives." By about tenth grade i hit rock bottom and began digging. and now here i am alone, unwanted and desperate for help.