Pros -I am an outcast. I don't fit in anywhere with anyone. -Apart from my family no one really knows I exist any more. -I am a ghost amongst people. No one really cares. -I have too many problems - severe depression, anxiety, shyness, hyperhidrosis -I've never had a girlfriend. Partly my own making, I have no confidence. -I've never had a job and am a drop out. Fees are going up and I may never go back to education. -I don't know what to do with my life. -I lost the will to live five years ago. Since i've been zombie like (as described by my father). -I am extremely paranoid, and generally feel like a black sheep. -I get so anxious I sometimes cant walk to a shop. I struggle to speak to people. -I have no friends left any more. I would call anyone I have left acquaintances. -I spend almost every day alone. Often in the house with nothing to do. -All I feel anymore are 'bad' emotions. -I feel not worthy of anything. If anyone pays me any attention I am amazed. -I am not like everyone else. This is something i've known all along. People won't joke with or relax around me. There is something fundementally wrong. -Going on further in life will only give more fuel to my messed up state and make me feel worse and worse. -I'm fearful of life. -Taking my life will give me the freedom and peace that has always eluded me. I spent my life alone struggling with problems so I will end my life alone privately in my own way. Cons -Possible hurt caused to parents. -Things could make a miraculous turn around. But I will always be broken. Sounds like my mind is already made up.