Here's my story: When I was 16 I met a girl, she'll remain nameless for her privacy, I instantly knew I liked her, but I didn't know what love was yet, she lived very far away and I didn't have the means to see her more than once a year or so. We talked on the phone for hours and sent each other letters. Slowly that relationship dwindled due to other obligations and responsiblities. Four years later, I get the wild idea to look her up one day, I find her and contact her, and she wants to see me again. I was so happy and nervous, I had no idea what to expect. We hung out and talked and watched a movie, that night we ended up making love and it was amazing. We saw each other almost constantly after that. I moved in with her shortly afterwards because I had lost my place and needed a place to stay, in retrospect, it was a bad idea. To compress the story slightly we were together for over 2.5 years, we had fights and we broke up twice, but we always came back to each other, and very quickly, because we really did love each other. We decided about three months ago to take a break. We were making each other absolutely crazy and we had really lost sight of the love we had for each other. We still saw each other regularly and I really felt like we were starting to mesh again, but we hadn't made anything official or set in stone yet. On New Years she had the chance to hang out with someone that we both knew back when we first met, and she did, and she really had fun. At the same time, for my new years resolution, I decided I wanted to be everything she ever wanted and needed, because all I really wanted in life was to be with her. I told her most of how I felt and made plans to sit down and talk, those plans ended up getting postponed. Well, the night before last they hung out again, and ended up sleeping together. Yesterday I finally got a chance to tell her how I felt, but apparently I'm too late. She has serious feelings for this new guy and now I've been tossed by the wayside. I really can't help but blame myself for the whole thing either. I am horribly depressed. I keep crying uncontrollably and I'm having serious thoughts of suicide. I really don't want to kill myself and I don't know that I could if it came down to it. But I need her back. I love her more than life itself, I have since I was 16, and I know I always will. She told me that she still loves me, but it's just not the same anymore, something inside her changed and she can't see herself having a future with me anymore. My biggest problem is that I can't see having a future at all without her. I feel extremely lost and alone because I literally have no-one to talk to about it. She has been my best friend for four years, and I really don't have other friends to speak of. I know this sounds horribly cliche and I'm sure it's been said a hundred times here before, but I just have no idea what to do right now. I really need some help. I'm not usually the type to ask for help, but I really feel like I've run out of other options.