Living through moments where I was sure I would end up dead, I had a hard time figuring out why am I still here? It was when people said to me, "If you are so suicidal and want to die so much, why after so long are you still here?" My answer to that came from my subconscience, and it was "If I wasn't here, who else would be willing to take a stance against suicide & the stigma it carries?" Speaking up will be what helps save lives. So when you sit there wondering why you haven't pulled the plug already, wait for the next person to ask you and feel for the answer. If you just let the words flow you'll understand why you are still here.