...I seem to always get depressed and lonely... I realized I have no one, no one to share my passions with, no one to talk to about stuff I enjoy, to hear someone else talk about stuff they enjoy...and that makes me depressed because I think that my life will always be like that and I will always be alone... I see my step sister and her boyfriend doing so well. She 22, has a job, a car, will moving in with her boyfriend soon...and I'm 31, alone, no job, sick, barely a human being. Stuck inside because of the cold weather. It's not a life... I took some meds, but I think I took the wrong ones by mistake so I took the right ones, otherwise I can't sleep, but now I'm wondering if I did take the right meds and now I just took a double dosage...not to die, honest, I'm just so absent minded....my brain isn't what it used to be...I used to remember everything, people's faces, people's names and every tid bit....now I'm lucky if I remember what I ate ten minutes ago... I'm tired...so tired...how can someone be surrounded by people yet be so alone?