I don't understand, my whole family is here, everyone is happy, and I'm sitting here like a jerk wishing for death. Why can't I just be happy, I'm so alone. Why? I feel like a Scrooge, I don't want to be this person anymore. Why do I always find comfort in solitude? I can't stop thinking that everyone would be so much better off without me. Honestly I know it's not true, my mind knows that as a fact, but I don't feel it. I just feel bad. I feel I am just a bad person, a worthless somebody that nobody should have to be around. Feels so bad to acknowledge that... But it's so true.