Why is it so hard to go on?

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by SawBonez, Apr 12, 2011.

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  1. SawBonez

    SawBonez New Member

    Everyday seems so dark.

    Thinking about how hard it is just too pull through if everyday will be the same.

    I've had problems with everything since I could remember.

    Raped, abused both mentally and physically, bullied, abandonment, and more.

    I've even done cutting and drugs, all it is a quick fix.

    I've already tried suicide, but that failed.

    Life sucks, I don't know where to even try.

    I'm thinking of doing it again right now, I don't know what to do. I really thinking of doing it. =/

    It feels like I'm drowning.

    Sorry if I seem like Im just a fucking attention *****.

    I just don't know. oh god. I hate myself for posting this.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hi please don't hate yourself i understand the need to get that pain and sadness out i hope you continue to post okay reach out so more here can help you. What i do when i am in that kind of pain i pick up phone and it takes me at least 5 tries but i call crisis line and talk to someone each time they help me release my pain in a safe way. Keep talking okay i hear you you can pm me any time i understand hugs
  3. solutions

    solutions Well-Known Member

    You list so many different reasons why you feel suicidal and depressed, giving us a very brief summary of why you feel the way you do. Everything you've mentioned is something that's already happened, a past event from your life. So what is making you want to kill yourself right now? Is there something that triggered all these memories to come back?
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