Everyday seems so dark. Thinking about how hard it is just too pull through if everyday will be the same. I've had problems with everything since I could remember. Raped, abused both mentally and physically, bullied, abandonment, and more. I've even done cutting and drugs, all it is a quick fix. I've already tried suicide, but that failed. Life sucks, I don't know where to even try. I'm thinking of doing it again right now, I don't know what to do. I really thinking of doing it. =/ It feels like I'm drowning. Sorry if I seem like Im just a fucking attention *****. I just don't know. oh god. I hate myself for posting this.