I have been doing it for years. I think i started in grade 7 and i havent been able to stop. It is the only way i can cope with things. I have tried many of times to stop but been unsuccessful everytime, even when i have been in the hospital i still get major urges to do it. Lately i have had more and more urges to SI and i gather the way i have been doing it is a form of SH/SI but not the usual way i hurt myself. I have tried many different ways to stop and i have come to the conclusion that once a self injurer/self harmer always one, even if you stop for a period of time you will always be one. It will always be in the back of your mind, like it is for me. It is usually a thought of mine everyday which bothers me. For me it gets to the point that i find anyway of inflicting pain on myself (no matter how small the pain is). I am making sure of not giving hints on SI/SH that is why my thoughts are all over the place with this post, sorry about that.