Why is life such a fucking BITCH!?

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by x-Danii-x, Aug 21, 2008.

  1. x-Danii-x

    x-Danii-x New Member

    Right now I want to rip my fucking hair out. Scream, shout, smash something. I hate getting like this and recently I've been feeling like this A LOT. Why, you ask? Well actually. It's a whole load of reasons!
    - Friends. I love them so much. They are my life. Without my friends I think there would be no reason for me to carry on. Ever get that feeling your slipping away from your closest friends? I do. Ive been on summer holiday in england now for hmm... 7 weeks? And i think in these 7 weeks Ive seen ONE person (Lena, your a great friend, love you dearly). At school I have my own little group of friends who I would literally die for. Fucking take a bullet through the heart if I had to. But they dont seem to appreciate me at all. When im with them I tend to play clown alot. I make them laugh. But you know it isnt fun being the clown all the time. Everyone presumes I'm a fucking RETARD! Well I'm not. I may laugh, I may joke, I may grin but believe me. Inside, it hurts. Badly. Just to know thats all I'm good for. A few laughs.
    Its also heartbreaking when you find out a bunch of your friends has been blatenly LYING to you. Friends are people you trust. What the FUCK is the point in lying? Oh little white lies..they not big so its okay. FUCKTARD! White lies add up! I fucking hate people who lie to me. If you lie because you think I'm gonna get angry...well think. When I find out the truth im gonna be 2x as angry. DUH. Use some fucking common sence!
    (Okay thats rant 1 out of the way)

    - I just feel like I'm never going to be actually LOVED anymore. Okay so sure alot of people say they 'love' me but do they really? The amount of times people have said that to me and feel fuck all..well I don't know. Another thing I have noticed is that people seem to love my BODY rather than ME. Asking me to do shit on webcam so they can fucking WANK. OHHOWFUCKINGROMANTIC! Some ask me horrible, revolting questions...theres just no need. Watch a fucking porno and stop harrassing me, assholes! I feel very used, very unwanted and very unappreiciated (spellcheckerplz). If I had a fucking mutation would they love me then. NOOOOO why would they. These days people dont want a nice personality/ugly fucker. NOPE they want a sexy ass/fucking bitch. Its all about SEX and all that shit. What kind of fucked up world is this?

    I would add more but this is like my first post so I'm not gonna spill it ALL out. Besides I'm alot calmer now that I've got all that out.

    If you read it then thanks alot = )
     
  2. tintin

    tintin Guest

    Aww hun, it sounds like you've been dealt a pretty shit hand at minute (Aimee is ace <3), if your friends are lying confront them. NO-ONE deserves to be lied to and treat like shit.

    As for the webcam stunt, in my expierences most guys think with their dick.. yeah not all guys i know but most.
    I'm sorry youtr going through this hun, feel free to P.M if you need a listening ear or someone to rant at :hug: xx <3