It is SO ridiculous. Ever since the 5th grade. Problem after problem. And they only seem to get worse. The year was awful. Failing out of school. Depressed. Attempting suicide multiple times. Then, it starts to lighten up a little. I start to feel a bit better about myself. Get some self-confidence. My school I'd even medically excusing me to save my GPA. On top of it I have a breakthrough with my therapist. Everything is great. What can go wrong? The stupidest thing ever, that's what. I run across a video that makes me question my sexuality. WHAT. THE. FUCK. Why me? Why does this have to happen now? Everything was great. OF ALL THE DAMN TIMES! I just don't win. Ever. I would just like ONE time in my life with no problems. I want to understand me.