why? why cant i be normal? why does it always come back to haunt me? Why can't I stop thinking about death, and how much better it would be to not exist???????? why do i WANT to hurt myself so badly? if they are just thoughts, then no one takes me seriously, if I act on them, then maybe someone will see that they should have done something about the thoughts before i was dead.... angry, resentful and longing to die right now.