A few months ago I attempted suicide. Obviously I survived, but the experience was absolutely terrifying. I'm trying to forget about it to better myself as a person, but the memories just won't go away, and they are so vivid it scares me. Sometimes I almost fall over due to clumsiness and it triggers this brief moment where I feel exactly the way I did when the chair holding me up was tipped over and it triggers the most horrific emotions I've ever felt. At night when I'm asleep, I have these dreams every night and I feel like I'm choking, it's so vivid and terrifying and I don't know what to do. Why am I reliving this moment? I just want it to stop but it won't and I can't stop these flashbacks.