Why do people dislike me? Why do people feel like I need to prove myself to them? I have bent over backwards for people who never and never will give a crap about me. Why do people pretend to care? Why do people blatantly not care? Why do people show such disrespect for other people? Why do people make them feel I am the scum of the earth and would be better off 6 feet under? Why do people who you think you are close to talk very nicely to you then talk crap behind you back? Why do believe show favouritism towards one but not other even when they are ''supposed'' to be equal to you. Why do people blatantly lie to you, if you call them out on it, they will continue the lie even when you know otherwise? I don't think I have ever understood why people dislike me, maybe it's because of my anxiety which in turns makes me shy and quiet and people don't want to be associated with that type person. Maybe it's a lot of things but one thing I do know is, is that I am very caring and a kind person but that doesn't really get you far on it's own. But no one will take that from me. I am not good in social situations, socially awkward to put it mildly and while I have come far compared to what I used to be, I don't think me and being sociable will ever happen. I'm sure I will feel somewhat better tomorrow as these days usually pass but those questions do always stay in the back of my mind. One thing is certain. You cannot control other's actions. So many questions, so little answers.