I have been struggling so much lately and my suicide plans are really strong
I'm having to fight the plans in my head constantly and tell myself that things will get better
But who am I kidding? They don't get better - I'm still in the same shit place I was years ago and it hurts
Things don't change, I just have to put n that fake smile and pretend I'm ok
No one knows what I'm going though and I'm tired of struggling on
Just want to curl up and die and end this once and for all
I'm having to fight the plans in my head constantly and tell myself that things will get better
But who am I kidding? They don't get better - I'm still in the same shit place I was years ago and it hurts
Things don't change, I just have to put n that fake smile and pretend I'm ok
No one knows what I'm going though and I'm tired of struggling on
Just want to curl up and die and end this once and for all