My name . . . or nickname anyways, is Libby. I am thirteen years old. I have one mom and two dads. the first dad is ALWAYS gone! Never home! He always tries to buy my love. As if he needs it. . . my mom is going back to school and smokes, and as far as I know she's done drugs one too many times. She doesnt abuse me or anything. I just hate her guts. She doesn;t understand me at all!!!! WTF is her problem?! Shes always saying she's here for me . . but how? You never wanna talk to me, and you leave me home alone every day. My other dad, is basically meantal. He has no control over his anger. I love him. He NEVER flips out at me. And he loves me. but thanks to his bottled up emotions, I CAN NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN!!!!! He let all his anger out on his sisters husband . . and it didnt end well. Now who's gonna be there for me? I've never been popular. Never had any good friends. I guess im not worth it. I only have . . what? Three friends? And I think 2 outa 3 of them would care if I was gone. I feel so lost in life. :lost: I've never really attempted suicide, but i've been trying to convince myself to. For some reason I just don't want to hang on anymore. I write stories . . . im good at that . . well kind of. I dont know why i said that, its not like my depressing stories effect anything. To be honest, I probly WONT kill myself, i'll just end up alone, poor, and scard for life. I guess I do need help getting over it. But whats the use? who could help me now? I have practically nobody. :badday: :bash: And please dont comment on my spelling or how stupid this sounds. It's not worth it. Im in enough pain already. Random Facts: -My grandpa died of cancer -My bestfriends Dumped me -popular chicks look at me with disgusted faces -Why am I so ugly? I mean, it's not my fault. -I want to die, but can't . . . .