I'm an immigrant living in Sweden. I suffer a lot of it, people looking at me as a potential criminal. People changing sides of the roads so they wont get mugged. When I was in first grade I finished my math book the same day I got it. I read a lot of books and I was smart. But they claimed I had ADHD and made me start grade one again. And the teachers called me a "blackie". I'm not black and I have green eyes and would be white in most parts of Europe and America. But this was my childhoods northern Sweden. You had to be pale and blond and blue eyed or else you where a "black person". I was bullied all of my childhood and then I dropped out of School. It has been 3 years now, I have been in my room all these years. I'm attractive and get a lot of smiles from ladies. But I never been on a date and I'm a virgin. I still live at home and I have no friends. Am I suicidal? Not really, I guess it's cause I dropped out of school. And, oh I'm 20 uneducated and never had a job, so I wont get one ever either... Why does it have to be me?