i'm so alone. I dont know whats goin on in my life. its moving to fast. my mental state i dont think its wrong i think its necessary. i cut myself to stop my self from killing myself but cutting myself isn't having much of an effect anymore. so i take the next step. i can get rid of all of this with one cut one of the easy actions is one of the hardest things i've ever done. i feel lost in my mind. i feel as if no-one cares. the one person keeping me alive is my mum but my love for her only goes so far i know thats terrible but the pain is smothering me im choking on it i taste it. its become my life everything has become my pain i just want to release the burden of pain i never asked for this! why is it on me.