a while ago i was depressed and planned to murder myself. one of my friends talked me into a pact, wait til hs is over and if life isnt bearable by then to execute the deed. so in my 2nd or so year i animate a little stk kicking in the school library. a girl sees me and asked me how, little did i know at the time, i would fall in love with this girl....so we talked, and quickly became friends, but something sickening happened in the process, as the days went by i desired her company more and more and she appeared to do the same. before summer of last year on a hot day the assistant principal(who is in charge of the attendance office and has a history for hating me and singling ME out cause im late to school almost everyday) insulted me and my gf and i yelled at this bitch and she had me nearly arrested and i was locked in a mental hospital. where i considered bashing my head to death on the toilet there in my room. memories of my mother and father and her stopped me from doing it. She....when i hug her the world seems to be unable to harm me, when we kiss time appears to stop and i feel complete. SADLY shes 16 and 3/4 and im 18 now....shes also a slave to half brothers and sisters that are babies to 7. only 1 sister is 7 and the rest are like 2-5 there are 5 in total counting her. I cant see her cause of the tight leash and i dropped out of school cause that shit was killing me. The ass principal pissed me off so much i despise her the same way hitler despised the jews and it woulda gone down as i wouldda probably killed myself with her breathing down my throat and the whole school was shit anyway. you would learn more sitting on your ass all day thinking. I love her, and she loves me but her family and her friend's parents despise me and its as if the world is keeping us apart. i went from depressed to happy to....an odd mix of content/melancholy/angry and i fear depression is around the corner....
does this all sound like a bad joke? everyone seems to have better relationships than me, this was my first in years and they never last past 3 months and this one lasted like almost 3 years now. i dont think i could do better at all and......the point of this is probably gonna brighten your day knowing you dont have this to deal with >_> T_T
does this all sound like a bad joke? everyone seems to have better relationships than me, this was my first in years and they never last past 3 months and this one lasted like almost 3 years now. i dont think i could do better at all and......the point of this is probably gonna brighten your day knowing you dont have this to deal with >_> T_T
