Pardon my language but....
Don't let the bastards get you down!
I've had more than enough trouble over being published - from professional cry-babies crying the blues - to political pond life whose opinion is all about money not truths.
As for sneers about depression and being published - that nurse is an idiot - but I wonder if she had read anything more than the back of the cereal. Many many famous authors and writers have been and are being published. A LOT happen to suffer with depression.
I see your issue with this nurse - and its a shame you cannot smuggle a small camera in these places. I knows its your word against 'theirs' but sometimes when your isolated in a place like that - your already feeling bad so you take things more to heart. What is left of your heart can be crushed by stupid people - so stay strong and remember that nobody has the right to abuse you.
Be strong and you will conjure up some smart plan to catch any fool who tries to play you for a fool - I dare say I could loan you a small mini spy-camera f you were strapped for cash - not something I'd normally do but I hear you and its a shame that there for want of a 50 dollar cam goes your testimony. Its not like I'm walking around all the time with the spy cam - its just there in case anyone official wants to go off on a 'power trip'.
Sounds like this nurse would be saluting for Adolf Hitler and cheering concentration camps 'back in the day'. All it takes is a uniform for some people - and they revel in that power!
Sometimes stupid people are jealous of depressed people and people with mental illness. Think about it - a stupid dull person who is nasty can NEVER be clever. You are clever and could run this therapy class on your own - plus make sure you actually eat something really nice.
I might have depression but I would literally explode with rage IF I saw someone bullying someone because of a mental condition. I guess the bullies just go for the weak and vulnerable, which is fine with me because I'd relish the chance to step in and explain the error of their ways.
Some staff are brilliant people.
Angels sent to help those stricken with the grief or profound sadness that debilitates us so. If you are not religious - the term is still a nice one to use. Some people are very special - in fact we all are - but its often a case of having someone seeing us as such that gladdens our hearts to the point were we like waking up in the morning.
The nurse is just one person in your life - don't fret so much much on her and allow people to belittle you like that. We all care for you here - and I read your latest post and had to reply. You are right - it is unfair - and unjust - and likely illegal - but don't let the bad weigh down the good. Don't let others drag you down to their level.
Others fight for our rights and ensure the poor and those short of cash in the middle class will have equal access to medical care regardless of earning $100,000 a year or someone homeless living in a box.
This psycho nurse, if you can record her yelling - then I hope she is jailed and understands how it feels when you think everyone is looking at you. She has bigger issues than you!
Far bigger!
In fact - I'm guessing that she is using her career to bully people and such people, although not classified as depressed, are certainly suffering from a mental illness al the same. Many here including yourself have been bullied and abused by people - and I would guess that you know all too well that such people, be they child abusers, or abusers of the mentally ill - are actually 'ill' themselves.
I stake everything I know on this.
So, there you have it - I'm glad to see you here - but not glad if you know what I mean? I mean it would be better if you just on some play station forum chatting about chipping the thing - but things are what they are - but what you are is not the finished thing. That nurse is finished spiritually and as a person - she could be reincarnated a thousand times and still come back as a wasp!
PM me if you need some help with a small spy cam. IF you want to go that way!
On a more lighter note please advise me what other beans I might use in a Chilly Con Carny?
I use baked beans - and also use kidney beans. Sure I make my own sauce, tomatoes, (tinned and perhaps cherry tomatoes) plus onion. Don't like Garlic - or sunlight and stakes through the heart.
I also find that a touch/dash of celery will really help.
Anyhow, - don't worry about your weight - and try not to eat out so often in hospitals! The food itself would actually make you depressed as it is a nutritional nothingness - cardboard with flavouring.
You enjoy your own cooking and hope you get work soon. Chefs can be depressed and seem 'normal' - maybe that was the trouble!
My Best.
Hope that things can get better as the Summer progresses.
God bless.
