I had to go to the consultant this morning a bit away.the nurse there was the one who abused me in the past.she let me wait two hours while others were called. When I said something she looked at me viciously.seriously amd she barked an answer. I didnt go further about her.i.mean she gets away with talking to me like im dirt. The other patients were saying things about me they couldnt have known. Id never seen any of them before.i heard one say I was published mocking me. It was awful.everyone knows everything about me and watch everything I do waiting for me to make myself more open. Im not imagining this.a complete stranger in the pub said word for word what I had written anonymously on an internet forum.one where I had told no one I was on. The only people who talk to me are my family and they hate me. I dont think theres a point in going on.