I am really scared because I feel like I could easily go over the edge. I can't think of any reasons not to do it. I am on my own and have been for some time. It wouldn't hurt anyone, so why can't I just leave? I would be at peace then. I feel scared of what I could do, but also oddly calm. Not sure why I am writing this because I feel nothing matters anymore. This is darkness that I can't escape from.