This question pops into my head on a constant basis "why not?", everyday I am depressed and paranoid, despite my efforts to improve myself. When I pause and reflect, almost every moment has been riddled with fear, depression, anxiety, any other negative emotion I can't think of right now...I would truly be better off dead. I'd rather end it now before I snap and do something I would morally regret. I have taken two Klonopin, so I am pretty calm while writing this message. But I just know, in the face of superlatives, I'd rather not exist.