I was 10 years old when I witnessed my oldest brother murder my dad and attempt to murder my mum. It was a horrific attack. Prior to that I was sexually abused by my other brother. I became a Christian and found hope in Jesus. I got married, had 2 beautiful children who I've watched grow up and fall in love themselves. I had a book published about how I overcame my past and am about to celebrate 25 years of marriage. Everything in my life looks amazing...the only problem is I don't want to live it any more. I don't know why this is happening now after all the battles I've fought & won?? I guess I'm just tired & I don't want to have to fight any more. I want out but I don't want to hurt anyone else in the process. Imy feeling confused.