so anyway, not sure if i told you about this.... but earlier in the week i told 1 of my colledge tutors that i would not be back next year- and i was wanting to try and comit suicide again before i even had a chance to leave colledge. in other words, i wanted to do it at the colledge and never look back.... anyway, my parents rang me today and asked me " your tutor just aranged a meeting, do you know what's it about...?" anyway- i told them it was to talk about a certain person at the colledge, nothing to do with me what so ever. you see, apart from the tutor in question- no one else knew of my plans. they asked me if it was anything bad and i told them... oh no, you've nothing to worry about. anyway- they said something along the lines of.. hmm, i wonder why she wanted a meeting so bad? and then they hung up.. they are going to try and contact the tutor in question tomorrow, and take it from their. if they ever find out what my plans were, who knows what could happen... i really don't know whether i should just call back and confess everything (even though it is hard). what you've got to remember is, they were never their for me.. so why do i tell them anything?. or do i wait with baited breath to see the reactions and watch it all unfold. i'm a lier and a cheat- feel so ashamed right now. thanks for reading..