I have a caring mom, even though she can be hard to get along sometimes. That's why I don't live near her. ( which is the next town south). Although I go to group therapy a lot, I still feel so lonely. I can't seem to socialize and keep in touch with my potential friends that I've met in group. I'm afraid of making friends because I always end up losing them. I have a guard on. Then my neighbors here all have issues and are too consumed to bother with my issues. I understand that but wish I could visit them without the fear of bothering them. I used to socialize with them more than I do now, but I don't want to hear their issues and then tell them mine. I feel they have more serious issues than I have so I feel I shouldn't be so depressed. The New Year is coming up now and I pray for a better year, with or without friends. I have to say that you guys are my second family and are more supportive than my own. I will continue to use this forum to vent and try not to pity myself. I do have lots to be thankful for, but how quickly I forget that, and feel guilty that I still am depressed. It sure is a trying time for me. I'm trying to stay busy and think positive.