I'm just tired. tired of everything. tired of getting no sleep, tired of feeling down, tired of being disappointed, tired of losing people, tired of living. i just lay around all day with no energy at all. i just wish i could fall into a sleep and never wake up. yeah, like death. but i just want to peacefully slip away. i just want to disappear like i never existed. like my life never mattered, not that it does. i dont even want to get better anymore, i know i wont. fuck my psychologists they dont listen to me, they just question me on fucking everything. yes, I've made bad decisions that fucked me up more but no one else will help me, I'm better off alone. i just want to get a job buy a small apartment and block out the world. being lonely is nice, fuck friends im done with even trying to make friends, it's already hard enough to find friends in the first place, then they always fuck me over. fuck everyone actually. i just want to be dead or alone.