I had some threads on which I said I want to die because of various reasons,like the fact that I am shy,that no one will ever like me,that I am unloveable and that I am worthless and not capable of doing anything. But the fact is that I simply don't se why I should live.In the last years I was worse and worse.I stoped learning at school and now I might not making to the next year.I isolated myself a lot.Until a few years ago I was fat and I was isolated from the world,but I had a few friends.Now I lost weight and I look ok,but I just became more isolated.All I do is to stay in front of my pc.I want to start studying again,and to start making my life worth something,but I just don't have the energy.In the past,even if I was shy and didnt had many friends,I was still spending some time with those that I had.And I was happy sometimes.But in the last years,I closed myself from the exterior world,and I even forgot how is to be happy.I miss those days on which I was enjoing that holliday has come,or any other litle joys.Nothing makes me happy.I play lots of games at at pc,but that only distracts me.It does not make me happy. I really don't know what is wrong with me.I tried to find reasons,si I was thinking that maybe because of my issues with sex,or because I am so shy,but I just don;t know.Sometimes(like today) I really am not bothered that I'll nevr have sex or that I'll be alone.Maybe I just want to believe I am upset on those things,but the fatc is that I dont know whats going on with me.I dont even talk to my parents anymore.Yeah,we had a fight a few days ago,but they are not bad peoples.I only talk to them if I ask them to give me money,or other stuff like that.I just dont talk to anyone.Even teachers from school called my parents and told them they worry about me and that I changed a lot. When I started to lose weight,I did it because I was starting to become like I am now.And I thought that by loosing weight I will change.But now I am just worse then ever.I cannot be happy even if i don't have any reasons to be upset.And I lost all my will to live.I said in a few threads that is up to me to make my life worth something.But right now I am not capable of anything. At school,until about 3years ago(almost 4)I was in the first 4-4 children at study.Now I am the last in my class,and probably wont make to next year. Right now others noticed that I amvery bad at studies,but I am bad at everything now.When other things will come,I will be bad at those also. I know that because I just dont do anything.I just stay in front of my PC,and I am isolated from peoples around me.