Why should I live if I can't achieve dream? No one has given me a real reason. You see I've been doing all I can to go to college to get my four year degree, I completed courses for my two year degree, so I should only need to take two more years of classes, however, my choices have become more and more limited. My first college I'd hoped to go to was as I was lied to, not a public but a private college and therefore would cost considerably more and I would be unable to afford it as I will not take out loans and accept debt as an option. Second college, a state college that accepted me under transfer articulations, was ready to accept all my credits and yet, I was receiving a large amount of financial aid from my two year school based on the fact that I needed it since I couldn't afford it but the four year school will not provide me with any financial help, basically stating that I can't afford a two year school that cost half as much but I can afford their school. My option of a satellite school turned out not to be an option an at all. My last option, a school that only accepts transfer students in the fall, has yet to inform me if I was accepted at all and while I am trying to find that out, I have no guarantee that they will offer me any financial aid either. If I am accepted to my last option, I will spend the spring semester (this semester) getting any grants and scholarships I can while entering essays and contests. But I have only a slightly above average GPA, I am middle class, white, with no former wins in any art contests before. I am basically average and my art stinks. So if I am unable to attend college I will not have the degree needed to get my foot in the door to even start at an entry level position. So why should I live if I can't achieve my dream? To be clear, if I can't achieve my dream I will become a recluse ( a shut-in), so the possibility of meeting someone and 'falling in love' is impossible.