I haven't done any thing in months. I almost went a year with out cutting. But lately I've been thinking why stop? If I will always have urges to cut for the rest of my life why fight it? why try to stop? I don't want to deal with urges for the rest of my life. I can't find a good reason to stop. I've tried like I said I almost went a year but I always fall back to it. All my efforts are worthless. I don't even remember my reasons for trying so hard. Perhaps I thought it was something I could beat. I really can't think of any reason to continue to fight the urges. Why fight them if cutting helps. It's pathetic how many years I've been trying to stop. It seems useless.